The older I get, the more aware I become of how in control of my life I am. The world takes care of me? That's crap. Everything I do is in some way a choice made by me and I take full responsibility for it. People who play the victim and say "Well, I could be happy if ____ happened." or "Why does the world hate me? If only the world didn't hate me, I would be happy." Complete bullshit.
I've been grumpy, annoyed and not as happy as I should be for the past few weeks. I kept waiting for something exterior to myself to break me out of my funk and let me figure out where my life is heading after my internship finishes.
Yesterday and today, I took my power back. First, that negative dialogue that started in my head when I wasn't getting along with my boss is out the window. Everytime I catch myself thinking those negative thoughts about factors in my life I can't change (and I was thinking alot of them), I stop, tell myself to stop thinking it and try to think of something positive instead. Second, all that second guessing I've been doing to myself about getting a new job/relationship, I did the same thing I did with #1.
Third, I went for a pep talk run. It's the opposite of my patented angry run. During a pep talk run, all you do is talk to yourself about how awesome you are and how no one else in this world should ever be able to get you down on yourself. "How dare they try to do that? Do they even know who I am? I am strong and capable and awesome, and nobody puts baby in the corner! I'm going to go psychologically kick their ass all over the office tomorrow, proving how awesome I am!"
Ok, so it sounds a little bit schizophrenic, but I guarantee results!
In conclusion, I am the master of my own destiny. Happiness comes to me if I want it to. Not if this happens, or this date passes, or once I have it figured out. I am the only one who cares if I have a good day, and you better believe that I care.
Do yourself a favor: No matter what happens to you tomorrow, have a great day. I know I will.
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3 comments:
sweet you quoted dirty dancing...I've also been giving myself pep talks lately. best one yet was the short trip out of town talk, a little road tripping goes along way for a ladies confidence, and rejuvination
I can't believe you quoted what was potentially the cheesiest line in all of Film history.
Other than that, though, you had me pumping my fists in the air and whooping :o)
You go, girl. Taking ownership of your existence is a great power to have. It takes a strong will and determination. You make me proud.
Lurve,
K, who is sorta mushy and emotional today so forgive the gushiness
In the words of John to Joan Cusack in 'Say Anything':
"Why can't you be in a good mood? How hard is it to decide to be in a good mood and be in a good mood once in a while?"
"Gee, it's easy."
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